Nic last Words... to carol

the god choose to birth me on 22 nov 1989, the god choose to place me in smkbbsp..

then sri darshini intro you to me... with the problem while we are still blur blur in form 1 ...

until form2 i started to know you closer.. we group in the same blue uniform.. you have been my leader in form 3 for a period... i still can recall how i called you babi for the whole day...

we fight like hell... poteng class... you choose to sit with me... i still remember the way you slap me in the class.. and i cry... the way you anti me with yee sze.. lepak at her home... go carefore.. every friday we will love to have lunch with uncle george... wait you finish piano class... then pasar malam .... makan chah kuai teow.... then form 4 we be the diffrence class... there is where i meet all new friends like agnes... joy... and many more....

i still remember the letter you wrote to me on 11.37pm 1 febuary 2006...

i still keep the letter...
but until today you want to declared a distain with us...
my feeling like asking me to attend your funeral to said goodbye to you...
is our friend relationship can be just said no like that...
i dont want to said good bye to you ...
i dont to lose you ....
i still want to hear you problem...
i still want to plan anything with you...#
but now you choose to leave us
to me i feel sad ...
i cant take it , is also happen to the others...
world are not that diffult..
god creATE us to here is to be with problem and settle it... not run away... or stay away...

i am trying to be gentle here.... tired of scolding everyone....
i will try to call you lesser...
i will try to memember you lesser...
i will try to adapt in a new enviroment without you...
face war together all by our (7) of us without you ...

is happy to see you join us
is sad to lose you
there will be that no more nice home made card you will make for us....

lesser pictures will take with you ...
lesser laugh together with you ...
i will also eat leser food for your mom...

anyway i still can treat you as friend but i really cant think any new way to treat you when you are not a kepohians anymore....
you quit from us... i hope to see you back...
is not the matter of join and out
is the matter of love you friend no matter you are tired of anything...
is like how i use to practise ... when you as friend no matter how you make me angry still my friend...

the last thing is, we are not to be close anymore lo
take care darling....
you must dont simply trust your feeling, it help sometimes but it also kills you sometimes...
take care my besties friend...
love you ...